Disillusion Deals

Faced with despair,
That won't disappear,
Feeling the heat,
Drowning in it,
And questions as to why!
Increased in my mind so high,
As do I,
Commune with God,
But did not feel the urge,
Again checking spiritual lenses,
But there tends to spiritual quietness,
Ah!
Vexed I am,
Thoughts of grace accompanied in harm,
To such anger curb,
Portray as do Job,
So strong as hope surge,
Cleansing fire to purge,
All these from God comes,
Creating Determination combs,
In knots of endurance,
To Reasurrance,
Which replaces Disillusion.