Don't Give Up On Me.

 

There are times, I just wanted to shut the door, close the windows, off the lights and phones I want to give up. I wanted to be alone, isolated from the nitty gritty of what my life entails. I wanted to run away from friends and family associates, even God's people gathering. What kept me in the Universe was my hobby, and the feeling that He his watching from upthere.It became a social therapy for me but only for a while.However, loneliness isn't the deal for me, I was Single enough.

The pages of the books I write couldn't contain me. I could literally hear my writing voice speaking to me before I wrote, am  critically insane, it hanged on my shoulder waiting to voice out it's opinions as soon as my hands held a pen or even a pencil. The Anchor is getting deep and I'm going deeper. My thoughts keep changing they danced before me and talk as if am just a spirit that has not been reincarnated.

My feeling, thinking and even reading went supernatural. I couldn't see normalcy anymore, it was out of these world. I thirsted for the light in the dark room, a spark from the power source.Any how, anything, I was sick, desperate,tired and broken, scattered is more or less the word but mentally displaced.

But still I stay to fight, I fight for me. I fight till my heart is black and blue, stressed and strain, torn and worn. Bearing in mind, that the pressure will soon be a pleasure and the purpose is for a cause, a good one at that. A cause that brings, helps and  ties generation together, cementing them, sealing them till the fullness of time comes for that prepurposed agenda.

Don't give up on me, is a statement my self tells itself since I can remember. Early morning prep talks and confessions made the cut but in the mid day, a tiny flicker of doubt crawls in, dominating my thoughts and polluting it like fly inflicted maggots. Don't give up on me, is nothing but an action I creave from you dear friends, It isn't only needed for me but you too, deep down you know, you feel it.

Don't worry, chill, we will make it to the other side like Lovers do.✌️