How I Overcame Depression and Re-enacted my Focus On My Daily Set Goals.

 

I believe there are many ways in which doubt sets our hearts to depression. For me, I think depression tends to set in gradually from the smallest doubt I have on myself - a glaring indication of how low my self-esteem is as well as my self-confidence to actually achieve something that's beyond my capacity. Is it fear? No, it's not because I have already started working on something, I'm at least trying but it does not seem to just click. 

I start to wonder why some inventors go by their story  making affirmations of don't give up, it's never too late but they never tell you or disclose any excerpts they have from contending with a depressed mind. Anyway, just for the sake of keeping this phase in my life monumental, I have decided to tell you how I overcame depression and got my focus rejuvenated. So, I'm back on track. 

For starters, when someone asks me what the new year is for me? It literally is the beginning of my next birthday —that is my new Year. So when you are wishing me a happy Birthday and I'm saying to myself  Happy New Year, Yay! Okay, so the deal is, I make plans before the new year and try to implement them. 

However, I noticed that for the past 3 years, I have been repeating the same set of goals. Don't get me wrong, I used the SMART goal term but it's the same. I also employed the SWOT analysis goal setter—still, it's the same result. I never accomplished it.  

Not until my last year which was my last birthday, I realized some things needed to change about me drastically. And it will. I proposed in my mind just like Daniel did. I started making daily goals that culminate to my long-term goals. I never forgot to commit my plans to God, because it is written, commit thy ways unto the Lord and He will direct your path. And so I did, tabling it before God.

You know what, the first month was hot, I was on fire getting my tasks done diligently to the extent that I even downloaded a Task to-do app to communicate to my brain that I am basically serious. The second month came and I maintained the pace. In the third month, I started struggling due to life issues and all the things that come with it but I will say, I made a 40% difference. The fourth month came and all hell let loose. I just dropped. I woke up every day in that month feeling useless and could hardly keep up.

“I didn't bother about the months I did something, I was bothered by the depressing feelings that keep expanding in my mind from the coming days.”

I heard somewhere that whatever habit you imbibe and do daily for 30 days becomes part of you. I thought this finding was true but it isn't—its a lie at least speaking from experience. As a Christian, it's true one has a greater advantage. So, let me tell you what I did.

I went back on my knees in prayer, I learned to judge, examine myself, and see what is really wrong. It's a mechanic I employed this year to tell myself the bitter truth, I mean, let’s call a spade, a spade—what is it I need to work on, what am I doing wrong? I beheld myself like I was standing before a mirror. 

“The only person that can tell you the real truth is yourself.”

I noticed laziness, I had the berk to postpone and distraction is my forté—all this I saw and I knew I needed to do something. 
Before I got to realize that, I had doubts whether I could actually do it and depression just cruised in. At that moment, I knew I can't achieve one-third of those goals let alone succeed on finishing all the tasks set as my daily goals but I knew later on that I can’t do anything all by myself. I can only do anything preferably all things through Christ because he is the one who strengthens. 

I believe God's spirit in me that is the holy spirit did minister to me that since I derive strength from God why don't I tell him, why don't I rely on him. He made me realize the loopholes depression cruised in from. I had stopped commiting my daily goals into his hands. Realizing my faults, I started doing that and now depression is gone and I'm fully set on those goals. 

What keeps me going is the constant reminder that, as Jesus laid down his life for us, I was saved to be a blessing to others and slacking off or having doubt does not cut it. People are waiting to be blessed from my goals, the world is literally waiting for my manifestation and I can't afford to be replaced  because believe it or not nobody is indispensable.